mulling over our fight and flee response

I am sick for the 3rd straight day and it's not even funny. I absolutely DETEST being sick. Not only is the overall sensitive feeling icky bit a turn-off on its own... it's such a friggin' hassle. So allow me to vent on totally inane things as I am high on medication.

Let's start with...

SUNDAY, August 8.

Had to go home to the province for the christening of my second cousin's kid... which would make the baby, what, my cousin? Adorable little creature though. I have a soft-spot for all things helpless, which, I think, would explain why the whole "puppy-dog" (yes, I am well aware it's redundant) look turns me into an absolute marshmallow. I actually held her for a while. I swear, she liked me! She was cooing and smiling... Warm fuzzies. Awww...

Of course, no family thing could ever be complete without some sort of weirdness going on. I got to weasel out of singing alright (woohoo!! i DON'T sing in public) but I had to host the party. Why, oh why, is a host needed for a christening thingie? I have no idea. At least my relatives were happy, which is good enough for me. But the weird thing that happened was some old man (yes, we're talking lolo-old here) came up to me and started complaining about how I didn't introduce him, hence he couldn't sing. Why is this weird? 1) I don't KNOW the old man, 2) He wasn't on the program (yes, there was a program), 3) NO ONE had asked him to sing, and 4) He was REALLY ticked off at me. Go figure.

TUESDAY, August 10.

The fight or flee response.

You know how in our biology there are times when we simply MUST make a decision? Yeah, your body actually releases adrenalin, ultimately forcing you to FIGHT or FLEE. If you happened to watch the Nickelodeon series Inside Eddie Johnson, you'll know this for a fact. :P As I was saying, there are certain instances when we are compelled to make such decisions. Case in point: last night, while reading the Bible (yes, I'm trying to save my soul) I was so touched by a particular passage I wrote it down and sent it to a friend. Why that friend? I HONESTLY HAVE NO IDEA. He just popped into my head and something was telling me to send it to him. I don't know. It's not like I fear for his soul or anything. He's a good person after all. I really don't know why though. I was actually scared to send it to him, for fear of being thought of as a total whacko (I know what you're thinking. Shush.) but I had to send it. Literally, only God knows why.

Why does this incident merit a spot on my blog, you say? Because it was a fight or flee moment. Literally. I FELT it. And as far as I recally, I know of only 3 instances when this has happened to me. 1) Driving to Puffy's house the morning after we broke up. 2) Driving to Ed Bighead's house for some much needed CLOSURE. 3) After a totally horrendous fight with my mom (as in one of the WORST fights in my lifetime), to apologize. Now last night's moment wasn't exactly earth-shattering, but the response happened. So I am left with the question of... WHY?

TODAY, August 11.

For the second week in a row, a HUGE (I kid you not) signage nearly fell on me. I swear, I had JUST passed this heavy, wrought-iron mounted structure when the wind knocked it down. Shivers. I was really shaken. It hit a metal bench instead... but HELL, THAT COULD'VE BEEN ME!!!

Yes, it's the second week in a row. I probably have some Final Destination thing going on here. Last week, it was a smaller tarp mounted on metal frame. Probably only a third in size and weight. Now this? Oh, and driving along the highway I nearly crashed the car. Yupyup. Fell into some road construction. Well, it was still drivable but the car was hard to steer. Shit. Scary.


So... there you go. The last couple of days in a nutshell. Nothing really exciting happens to me anymore, I guess. Proof of this is that I was highlighting my 9-page long phone bill and found that in the past month I only called 3 of my friends. ALL the damn calls were business. I called the marketing department, the HR department, I even called the drivers. I HAVE NO LIFE!!!

I seriously have to rethink my current situation.